Perfecto Imperfecto
I.
Isang galos,
sa bukung-bukong;
Dalawang peklat,
sa magkabilang tuhod.
Poknat sa kilay
laslas sa binti
bakas ng bulutong
tahi sa talampakan (pesteng kulugo!)
at sandamukal na pelegis sa mukha...
San ka pa?
II.
Sosyalan
Inuman
Mingle mingle
Tete a tete
Ano pa?
Puta!
Sosyalang walang patumangga
Plastikan!
Gastos na malaki,
Yabang lang ang silbi.
III.
Nang dahil sa pera…
Naantala
Nabitin
Lintik na kapitalistang burukrasya!
Nagpakaalipin
Nagpakaputa!
Kursong pangmadla
Iskolar ng Bayan;
College drop out?
Huwag naman sana;
IV.
Pestihong korporasyong Kano,
Mapanlinlang.
Urbanong pamumuhay
Pain lamang.
Magarang tanggapan
Kahalihalinang benepisyo
Kulturang bago
Pananalitang huwad
Lahat banyaga!
Mga ampaw naman ang tauhan!
Teka, quarter-life crisis ba ito?
Waiting for Deus Ex Machina
"I had strayed. I had enjoyed what is forbidden. I am weak."
I had met Flame three years ago through David (an acquaintance who later on became my transitory rudder). Albeit short-lived, I remained in awe and adoration. The absolute trance the flame offers worked for me. It made me endure whatever's thrown at me - joblessness, emotional battery, disfunctional family and a lot more. Flame brought me back to my senses, enlightened me, and made me feel an unbelievable invincibility.
Pre-Flame - my life then was a mess. I did things I perceive now as categorically "wrong". I value nothing but myself and material things. I envy the rich and famous. I was pissed every moment things will not go my way. I loathed my family. I felt directionless. I wanted to do a lot of things but I knew I couldn't. I was empty.
Flame - Short-lived ecstasy. I lived my days then not knowing where to get things I need, but heck everything falls into my hands without me asking for it. My sister, who was pregnant at that time, offered to take care of my school since I involuntarily resigned from my company. I was not bothered by the emotional difficulties I was having, I had a strong fortress.
Post-Flame - Back to Pre-Flame. (But I don't hate my family now. Thanks to ee!)
Re-Flame - Let us see what will happen. I am weak. I shall not be weak. I am not weak. But I am.
